Thursday, April 16, 2009

Inside me...

I don’t know how much of this is going to make sense to you, but it is just random things that I am feeling. It somehow makes sense to me, however weird it may sound to you.

There are times in life that regret for certain things that we have done. Yes to say the truth I have a few such incidents which I feel bad for, which I repent, some of those things that can never be mended. Some may be it can be mended but don’t know how to go about doing it.

Sometimes you are in a dilemma as to what needs to be done and you go about doing things which you think might be right, without know that it is actually making the situation worse. It sometimes feels as if you are doing everything you can without being aware that your actions are causing pain to the ones who love you, which will push them away from you. And you realise it, but by then it is too late! Mistakes are something that everyone can do, some of the mistakes are done because you are not aware what you are doing is a mistake. You might think that your loved one will forgive you for it, it does not happen always. I have with my actions hurt a few people that were really close to me, and still are to my heart. Somehow I don’t know if I can ever mend that lovely relation that I had with them, and if there is a way I hope that god will show me the way to do it.

There were many people who came to me with similar problems that I had faced with; I have tried to help them in the best of the way I could, that is the only way I think I will be able to do some mending to what I have done. I have always tried to make the relation than to break it. But beyond that it is the couple who should decide what they need to do. I am not just saying this about love; it can be a friendship, or any other relationship in this world. I just hope the best for everyone.

Some of these things may cause the most painful turns in your life, But always do remember what everything happens, happens for a reason and for your own good. I just want to live now without hurting people who love me. I wish I could do that and I am trying my best to do it also. Because you are like a joker in a circus, wear a mask to the world around you, whatever happens in your life the mask will still keep smiling and the show must go on, because there are people watching you.

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